i am definitely a fucking LOSER.
SORRY for the inappropriate language but that is my FIRST for quite a LONG time and i think it is very much appropriate at this time. why?
well LIKE rishi said "procrastinating is like masturbating, you keep putting it off but you end up f-----yourself."
and NOW im totally that!..I HAVE HAD 5 weeks to prepare for this year 12 crap. AND what did i do.WELL i had 50%FUN40%bludge and only 10% studying! bloody 10%. i really hope things change!
BUTi do NOT regret the great stuff this HOLIDAYS..like the fun stuff. WHAT i hated were the times ive spent bludging, and thinking. I hope I LOSE this procrastinating attitude because it will F--- stuff up!..I need some lecture from rishi.!I need to wake up!..and face the reality because sometimes i can be out of it!.

YOU the strong one, who helps everyone, Gives everyone wisdom advices and simply stay strong because alot of people depend upon you and look up to you because you are simply invinsible in their eyes, what do you do when things get rough and theres no one you can cling on to for "your" advices. SOMETIMES you just wish that there could be someone to wake you up from a fantasy. SOMEONE to NOT say "everything will be okey" ,but someone who tells you that "if you dont do crap, if you dont reach for it, if you stay inactive, everything WONT be okey."

i guess we have to do something for something ot happen. simple but quite complicated if applied literally.
stay cool everyone. HAVE a great start of the year. HERE i end this post with much love from your only


kissesandhugs::mishB.